Just in case , must clarify this first.
If there's anything happens to me ,
the happening have totally nothing to do with you.
It's not your fault , it's meant to be happened.
Making you uncomfortable is never my intention.
I see the connection between us as a treasure.
Every time I said "it's good to see you." I mean it , every single time,
and I always apreciate those moments spent with you.
Although I am unable to face you right now ,
it's gonna take a while I guess.
But if you need my help someday ,
I will try to make myself to be something helpful for you.
It's more like an oath than a promise.
You have my word.
As usual:
Take care.
Stay safe.
Love you.
Farewell.
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不知道这样写压力会不会太大...

会。如果是我看了会觉得很不舒服。跟对方说如果我怎样的话如何如何，下意识的动机就跟说如果我因为这样死了你不用难过类似，很容易让人有情绪勒索的感觉。