Anxiety and depress makes it shorter and shorter.
Hope this week can go as well as I wish.
Tried and fail tried and fail , only murmur and praying left.
Only saving account is positive.
Sorry lie to you and myself , finally I realize that
it is impossible to let it go. You are everywhere, at every detail.
Not for any comfort, I know you will say it is my business ,
I know it is my business because I am nothing .
Not even a stranger, despite that you told me this will never happen.
I am not talented.
Words you said still seizing and creeping deeper in mind ,
like a bell ring everyday.I don't know where the wind comes.
Only Sisyphus there , days after days.