You may not want to admit something to someone for fear of being criticized.
Or at least that may be what you think, Leo. There may be a deeper reason -
even a subconscious reason - that you don't want to share your potential
plans with anyone else. It may be that someone who is more objective than you
might offer wise advice against the prospects that you really want to take
on. If this is your fear, you should face it now. Whatever you hear - either
validation or criticism - will help you better analyze your options.