Everytime, I feel boring , and I cannot have a balance between my work and
study. I tried to have some examination to ensure that I still have ability
to do something. But I find myself a lazy person and I don't have enough
courage to fulfill it, the most easy thing, such as TOEIC...(I am stingy
in costing in examination)
But I think when I have the certification, I can show others what do I have
in my brain....I really like to have fun or kidding someone else to have a
blank brain ...
Yesterday, when I was off of my time, I take a leisure to stroll on a road...
that was kept about 50 years more , composed of old buidings, dormotory, and
trees , flowers, things belonging to the nature. Every step I pass by, the
surrouding remind my to forget about the bothering in work, and I need to do
something to prove myself
THe courage should not disappear even I am a adult , or when I am old enough.
Sometimes I need some enforcement , to be like a student, or to try to prove
to other else what indeed do I have.
I know it was poor as me to have nothing special in my life and memory.
Today is a easy day as usual, and my time passed with my enjoyment of videos.
The life I have is somewhat like a junior student or senior student.
I don't know who can comfort me for every step I get trapped.
But the YOUTUBE is my best friend, and also cartoon network.
I don't have much time to enjoy some discussion meeting, to exchange my
knowledge. Every one was so acknowledged by their desire for knowledge and new
things.
I like drums, dance, drawing, even I cannot really be good at it.
I like skiing, singing, but everything is like a dream
I really want to join a group in which I can enjoy my interests with my friends
I have many choices, but I choose to miss it.
I am not the talent one, and I am still poor and think my brain blank.
The tragedy is that someone dreams about her brilliant future without doing
something real. I am the ghost of myself indeed.