《One Day I Become A Native Speaker 》
Just a miracle night I guess.
I became a native speaker in English.
When I was a child, in high school, my English is really poor.
I always failed every semester. I am so unconfident in English.
But my Chinese teacher really loves my article.
She said “得天下英才而教之。”that means I am an elite writer in Chinese.
This year, after Covid-19, I got serious brain fog.
My memory is even just 3s. That did not talk tall. When I found out
I got this sick, even I didn’t know what happened.
I went to see a doctor at first time. I remember even the MRT station’s
name that I couldn’t sure where I should go.
It really made me sad and scared.
After that, my brain got some problems gradually.
But my sick is more & more serious, my brains would become
more & more smart. I am really smart even my brain fog
just 3 seconds memory. I become so sensitive. Few months ago,
I love 《乩童秩序 TWONKY ORDER》’s music. They are so avant-garde.
But now my brain only accept “Mozart Piano”. Yes, that’s so peace.
One night, I say the miracle night.
I wrote a lot of Chinese poems in a 7-11. Suddenly,
I found I really became “我手写我口。”
That means I really write immediately from my mouth even from my mind.
After that, I just walk home. Because of my sick,
thousand of messages appear in my mind. I know I should speak out.
I don’t care the eyes from someone who is just passing-by.
I know I should speak louder. I don’t care anyone.
I know I am a sick. I just speak English louder.
That is the “Muscle Englsih”
from my brain I guess. Every sentence I speak three times because
I know just one time should be too fast in my brain.
At first I just speak some nonsense.
But gradually I build some significant sentence.
Yes, I found it’s a miracle for me. I never thought in Chinese,
just in English. It’s really a miracle for me. After I come home,
I can't bear to forget this feeling.
I open my Mac and I just type English even my English type
is so poor. But I don’t want to give up. After that,
I finish my first “native speaker” article in English.
How proud of myself. Even I just know that should be more
like Singlish. But I didn’t think in Chinese, just in English.
That never happened in my experience. I know it’s a miracle night.
What a beautiful night.