https://theoutline.com/post/7267/living-with-passive-suicidal-ideation
这篇写得太美了一定要存一下
今天下班还是喝酒听emo摇滚乐嘶吼 像烈子一样
到底平凡的社畜人生是有什么可以期待的
父母说的话根本就反效果
如果活着本来就很苦 那我活来干嘛
况且我没求开导
听一半就把说教shut down
你跟我讲这些老生常谈有什么用 我不会因为非洲儿童还是乌克兰人过得比我苦就觉得快乐
只能继续漂浮 用一些东西短暂地转移深层的不快乐。

I realized that as long as one doesn’t have an active plan, it doesn’t seem to matter at all. I guessit’s almost as if, if it’s not (going to) cause damage, it’s not something that worth the resources/energy. It may sound cruel but it is what it is. It actually helps me in a way not to see it as a big deal as well.