我试着在想当初他那个令我不忍直视的问题
what do you want?
我希望一段关系对彼此是特殊的 有意义的
然后呢
当这个目的已经达成
再见面联络维系关系又是为了什么
what am I looking for in this relationship with you?
I don't know
so I don't know what to do with you.
I always feel this is temporary, a moment
we're just going to have a moment,
maybe a moment afterwards, and another
but they are only going to be moments after moments.
it never feels real.
never feels like I really matter, or you, or what we have.
I need to detached myself, to be able to get closer to you.
I know we're not meant to be.
but if I'm not looking for someone who's meant to be.
then what am I after?
what is everyone after?
what are the differences between me and other people?