他把"Wild"看过一遍
"有朝一日，我也要挑战太平洋屋脊大纵走!"
他暗暗自许
剧末，女主角的自白言犹在耳
"What if I forgave myself?"I thought.
"What if I forgave myself even though I'd done something I shouldn't have? "
"What if I was a liar and a cheat and there was no excuse for waht
I'd done other than because it was what I wanted and needed to do?"
"What if I was sorry, but if I could go back in the time,"
"I wouldn't do anything differently than I had done?"
"What if I'd actually wanted to fuck evrey one of those wemen?"
"What if heroin taught me something?"
"What if yes was the right answer instead of no?"
"What if what made me do all those things everyone thought I shouldn't have d-"
one was what also had got me here?"
"What if I was never redeemed?"
"What if I already was?"
对于过去的困惑和疑问通通显现了.........
他觉得他值得一个好觉，他也有信心他可以做到了。
他相信女主角，他看见了救赎。