The most sad thing, you have nothing, or no one to complain.
It means, after all, all of there to be doomed is yourself.
Not an easy way to go through. Because it is you to make it happened.
In my opinion, the only thing you can do at this moment,
is to be calm instead of getting crazy, then try to make things
reasonalbe. In this way, you might get through everything finally,
and get survived eventaully, not ruined everything instead.