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What made you decide to retire?
The next thing I’m about to say is unknown to practically everyone. Only
Coach kkOma, the manager, and a couple close people know about this. I’ve
come to the conclusion that I cannot continue as a pro because of my mental
illness.
什么让你决定退役的？
我要说的是大家都不知道的事，只有扣马，经理人，和一些跟我很亲近的人才知道。
因为我的精神疾病所以我做出了没办法继续打职业的结论。
Recently, there was a pro that retired because of OCD (Obsessive Compulsive
Disorder). Is it the case for you as well?
It’s similar. I have 4 mental disorders. At first, I couldn’t even imagine
that I had them. First, I have depression, but these days, a lot of people
deal with it, so I’m not too worried about it. Other than that, I have
adjustment disorder, anxiety disorder, and panic disorder. I found out about
them in 2017, so it’s been a while.
最近有选手因为强迫症才退役，你也是这个情况吗？
有点像，我有四种精神疾病，我甚至都想像不出来。首先，我有忧郁症，不过这几年很多
人都很常见，所以我也不是太担心。
别的呢，有适应障碍、焦虑症跟恐慌症，我2017年发现的，已经有一段时间了。
(适应障碍症是指个人在压力事件后的三个月内出现的情绪或行为症 状，且在压力源停止
后症状未持续超过六个月的一种心理反应。)
(恐慌症，是一种焦虑症，特征为没有预兆地一再恐慌发作。恐慌发作是突然的短期强
烈恐惧)
(焦虑症或称焦急症（英文：anxiety disorder）是明显感觉焦虑和恐惧感的一种精神疾病
。焦虑是对未来事件的担心，恐惧则是对当前事件的反应，这些感觉可能会导致身
体症状，如心跳过速和颤抖)
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As I’m hearing about it, I don’t think you’re the only one suffering from
the same problems. Do you ever talk about this with other pros?
I don’t know. I’m the type of person that’s usually closed off, so I’ve
only talked about all this with close people around me. I don't think a lot
of pros know about this as well.
当我听到这些的时候，我觉得你应该不是唯一一个受到这些问题困扰的人，有试过跟别人谈论这些吗？
我不知道，可能我是那种会把自己隔离掉的人，所以我只会跟一些我身边亲密的人说，知道这些情况的选手也不多。
Nevertheless, it must’ve been a hard decision to make. Did you get any
advice from others around you?
Yes. Whether it was kkOma, my manager, or PoohManDu… they’ve all said, “It
’s right to stop if it’s too hard, but are you sure you won’t be left with
regrets?” Those words struck me real deep, because I really want to keep
playing.
However, my panic disorder started to creep into my daily life. It would
creep up whenever I'd have mood swings. It was time that I brought up my
retirement plans to my parents as well. Things continued to the point where
I, Lee Jae-wan, as a person, would really end up dying. To be honest, I was
looking for a new team a couple days ago, but when I’d have panic attacks,
two to three times a week… I knew I couldn't continue.
不过，这肯定是个艰难的抉择，你有从你身边的人获得什么建议吗？
有啊，扣马、我的经理人还有普满度......他们全部都说：“如果真的太过艰难的话，就此停止是对的，但你确定你不会留下遗憾吗？”
这些话真的感动了我，所以我真的很想继续打下去。
不过，我的恐慌症开始侵蚀了我的日常生活，只要是我有点心情起伏就会发作。
就连我告诉我爸妈退役的消息的时候也一样，事情再这样下去，我，作为李宰完的这个人，很可能就要这样死了。
老实说，我几天前还在找新队伍呢，不过当一个礼拜恐慌来袭两到三次时，我知道我坚持不下去了。
(中略)转个话题
On the other hand, what would you like to have achieved, but couldn’t?
I’m still like a kid thinking about this, but I regret that I couldn’t hold
the title, ‘The best in the world’. I wanted people to think and say, ‘
Support = Wolf’, but it sucks that I have to call it quits here.
你有什么想达成却没做到的呢？
这个嘛，可能有点像小孩，但我很后悔没能保住世界最强的称号，我想要人家一想到辅助就会说Sup=Wolf，不过我必须在这里离开了啊。
What would you like to do, not as Wolf, but as Lee Jae-wan?
Nowadays, because I’m thinking so much about what I want and need to do, I
only get about 3 to 4 hours of sleep. First, I want to live alone. I want to
experience many new things in a new environment, and live life to the
fullest. I’ve been living with my family while doing for these past two
months, so I felt really useless. Since there were only expenses and no
profit during this time, I became even more worried about the future.
I want to get back to doing the things that I’ve put off as well. I’ve
recently started working out again, and I was really frustrated that I couldn
’t do some of the things that I could do before. Overall, I want to live
more independently.
你有什么想做的吗？不是选手Wolf，而是普通人李宰完。
现在嘛，因为我想了我想要做什么和需要做什么，所以我只睡3~4小时，首先呢，我想要独居，我要去新环境体验全新的生活，而且会充实的生活着。
过去两个月我一直跟家里人住，所以我觉得自己真没用，这段时间只会花钱不会赚钱，我变得更加担忧我的未来。
也想回去继续做被我放置的事情，我最近又开始锻炼自己了，对我做不到以前能做的事情感觉满沮丧的，我想活得更加独立。
Then, as a pro player, this will be the last question you'll receive. Please
send your final messages towards your fans.
Finally, I'd like to thank the fans that have continued to support me over
the years. Although this may not sound genuine, I wholeheartedly believe that
I was able to come all this way because of each and every one of you.
After I won Worlds in 2016, I've stated in an interview that I'm like a
single gear in a clockwork. All the other gears that supported me are every
one of my fans, so I'll continue to treasure all your support in the many
days to come.
Although my time as Wolf, a pro gamer, has come to an end, my time as Lee
Jae-wan is just beginning.
做为选手的最后一个问题了，对你的粉丝说最后的话吧。
我很感谢那些在过去几年一直支持我的粉丝，虽然很少真正见面，但我能走到这条路上都多亏了你们大家。
在2016夺冠后，我在采访里说我像是个齿轮，但那些支持着我转动的齿轮是你们，我的每一位粉丝。
所以未来的日子里我也会感激着你们的支持。
虽然作为职业选手Wolf的生涯结束了，但我作为李宰完的时间正刚开始。