https://www.facebook.com/Krepo.LoL/posts/756171434455091
I will no longer be part of Evil Geniuses and will be a free agent from now on.
You can find more info in the long text below.
我不再属于EG 并且现在开始成为自由选手
Hey guys just got back from worlds, it was an amazing experience. There were tons
of fans out there both watching online and in the venues. Standing there
in the middle of the Sangam Stadium looking around and seeing about 40 000 people
going absolutely nuts made me realise i made the right decision dropping out
of college (KIDS STAY IN SCHOOL). During the trip i got to know the production side
even more and they truely are a bunch of experienced and fun people to hang around.
Ranging from casters to producers to crazy stage managers. It was a blast but at the
same time i'm so happy to be home again.
Hey大家，我刚从世界大赛回来，真的是个很棒的经验。数以万计的粉丝在现场和线上收看。
站在被四万名观众围绕的体育场内，让我确定我当初辍学是正确的选择(孩子，留在校园里)
这段旅程让我更加了解幕后的工作。从赛评主播、制作群到疯狂的舞台经理们，幕后人员
都非常有经验同时相处起来非常有趣。对我来说真是一大震撼，同时我也非常高兴终于可以回家了。
Now to get on point, I just wanted to add some context to the tweet that went out.
It announced Me & Evil Geniuses parting ways. First of all i have a lot of respect
for Evil Geniuses as an organisation, they've always treated me well both in taking care
of me as well as paying me a fair wage and I respect that a lot.
在这里我想对宣布我与EG分开的推文做些补充。首先我对EG这个组织充满敬意，
他们总是待我良好，包括对我良好的照顾及薪资。
However there were some things that ended up going suboptimal that lead to this decision
being taken. Let me remind you that there are 3 sides to every story, mine, theirs and
the truth somewhere in between. But I just wanted to share my side of things.
有些事情的发生导致了现在这个次佳的决定产生。
当然，所有是都有三个面向；我的说法、他们的说法、及这之间存在的一些事实。
在这里，我希望说说我的故事。
So where we begin. I guess at the start? Perhaps at the start of last year? After not making
it worlds the old CLG.EU line-up broke up and was left in shambles, Froggen wanted to his own
thing and the rest of us weren't sure as to what to do. Evil Geniuses offered to provide
sponsorship/branding to a team owned by Brian Cordry in the states, a team we
( Stephen, Yellowpete & Me) would end up joining. Now in e-sports you have to make many
tricky decisions, and this was one of them. To this day I don't really know if I made the
right choice. Part of me feels I joined that line-up in an effort to stay "relevant" rather to win.
Part of me knew that the line-up wasn't gonna make it to worlds, but we could try, right?
I don't know. Should I have stayed free agent? All i know is going into next year it'll be 100%
to win, or not at all.
去年初，老CLG.EU没打进世界赛时，队伍分崩离析。
Froggen想要搞自己的队伍，而其他人还不知何去何从。
EG提供了冠名/赞助给Brian Cordry在美国的战队，也就是我、Yellowpete、Snoopeh后来的队伍。
在电竞里总是要做一些难以取舍的决定，加入EG便是其中之一。
直至今日我依然不确定这是否为一个正确的决定。
一部分的我觉得加入是为了与前队友在一起而非获胜。
另一部分我知道这个队伍打不进世界赛，但我们还是可以试试看。
我应该继续当自由选手吗?我现在只知道明年要有100%投入去获胜，不然不如作罢。
We had a rough first split and the spark between me & pete slowly died down so we ended up
replacing him with Altec. Johnny is quite possibly the biggest rough talent out there.
I'm confident he'll be the best ADC in NA one day. However he has some hurdles to overcome
before that.
我们第一段打得非常艰难，我和PETE间的矛盾也慢慢浮现，最后我们用Altec取代了他。
Altec大概是队上的一块璞玉，我有信心他会成为北美最强的AD选手，但是他仍有着问题去克服。
I don't wanna dwell too much on the first split and just talk a bit about the second split.
The scouting/replacing process was far too long and we barely even had practice with Johnny
as the ADC (evidence is delayed paperwork forcing Pete to play a last "goodbye" match.)
So we started the split on a false note. And I think that was the prelude to a lot of
avoidable troubles.
第一赛段我不想说太多，应该多说一些第二赛段。
整个找人换人的过程拖了太久，我们几乎没有跟altec团练到。
(证据就是换人的手续很晚才办妥，Pete还不得已多打了一场"告别赛")
这个赛段我们从起跑就有问题，这就是之后很多可避免问题的前因。
In no way is this blog/vlog meant to single out persons but there were just
so many things that could have went different. Our team owner Brian Cordry is an incredibly
nice guy with his heart in the right place and a passion for e-sports. However he just
didn't have what it takes to be a manager when it came to maintaining a healthy social
atmosphere or guiding a competitive e-sports roster. He's incredibly talented at organising
scrims/taking care of groceries or making sure the house stayed tidy, for that I would
like to commend him. But for every area he excelled he was too inexperienced in others
and it lead to an incredibly unhealthy and at times depressing in-house environment.
写这篇文不是特别要来抓战犯，但是很多发生的事可以有不同的结果。
队伍老板Brian Cordry是个非常棒的人，对于电竞有非常大的热忱。
但是身为战队经理这个角色他没有能力营造一个好的气氛和开导选手。
对于约团练、后勤他非常有一套，这点上我需要表扬他。
但是在其他方面他就显得经验不足，导致整个队伍的气氛非常不健康。
From my experience, managing a competitive 5 man team-game is like defusing a bomb.
Wrong moves can only make it worse. We tried to not let shine through but it did affect us all.
Because of the late switch, Pete still ended up living in the house (as well as Stephen later),
and both ended up doing so for pretty much the entire split, in their own rooms forcing
starters to share rooms (or in Altecs case, sleep at the bottom of a stairwell in the open
entry area for about 2 months).
以我对管理五人战队的经验来说，那就像是拆炸弹一样。
走错一步就会让情况更糟。我们试着让事情过去，但他就是影响到了大家。
因为换人的时机晚，pete依然跟我们住在一起(尔后snoopeh也是)，
他们有个人房间大概持续了整个赛段。这使得房间不足，其他选手必须分享房间。
(或是像altec一样睡在楼梯底下的开放空间将近两个月)
(译注：harry potter，是你?)
With Stephen gone, I tried to step as a leader for the team as well as trying my hardest on
support. It's incredibly hard to combine leadership and playing at the highest level cause
you're constantly trying to help others solve their problems. Mainly in communication.
A lot of our scrims would start of by me asking "Hey guys what're we doing, what's the plan?"
Hoping for a response. And this is where I feel the younger players can improve, and
i've told them so and I really hope they take the advice.
snoopeh走了之后，我试着站出来领导队伍，同时把辅助位打好。
同时要带领队伍又要打出职业等级的操作非常困难。
因为你一直在解决其他人的问题，大多是沟通问题。
很多团练的开始都是我再问大家，我们现在要做什么?计划是什么?期待得到回应
这也是我认为年轻选手可以进步的地方，我告诉过他们也希望他们听得下建议。
It's really disrespectful to be watching Anime/on skype/not paying attention while
there's someone trying to improve the team atmosphere and communication.
It's impossible to lead if you don't have the respect from the people you're trying to help,
and there I failed. I don't think i've ever had the full respect from the team, and then
what's the point. I'm not perfect, I had bad weeks, bad streaks, some personal shit to deal with,
but I tried.
当有人在试图改善团队气氛及沟通的同时，看动画、SKYPE、和不放在心上是非常不尊重的行为。
当得不到我试图帮助人的尊重，根本就不可能领导这支队伍，所以我失败了。
我觉得我从未获得整个队伍的尊重，显得毫无意义。
我并不完美，我有表现坏的时候，也有自身的问题要处理。
但我试过了
But then when a teammate tells you " Yo it feels like these scrims are 2v5 this entire week"
or I have to ask Altec if he remembers when the last time was he asked me to play duoQ, only
to be met with " Uhm, I don't know". Well I knew, it was well over 2 months.
I don't even recall him telling me "good job" in any of those last 3 months in-game.
That's when you know you're no longer a team but just some guys playing together till the
season is over.
但是，当你听到队友跟你讲，这礼拜的团练怎么都像是二打五。
或是当我问aletc上次我们双排是何时，只得到：嗯...我不知道。
好，我知道，是两个月之前
我甚至不记得他在这三个月之内对我说过good job这两个字。
这时，我开始了解我们不再是队伍，我们只是刚好一起打电动的人，直到赛季结束。
After every scrim near the end there would be a 10 minute long discussion in Korean between
Pobelter and Helios of which we'd get perhaps a 30 second translation if we'd ask.
There's about 20 other things that went wrong/could've gone better but it's no point d
welling on the past. Point is, the social atmoshpere wasn't healthy and it just wasn't fun anymore.
之后每次团练后，Pobelter和Helios 大概都会用韩文交谈十分钟，
当我们问起了才有三十秒左右的翻译，大概还有至少20件我们的失误或是可以做得更好的事吧。
总之，过了就过了
问题在于，整跟氛围就是不健康也不再有趣了。
Ironically my best performance came when I said "fuck it, I don't care about the team anymore"
and I went in to superweek wanting to prove myself rather than EG. We ended up going 4-0 after
losing every scrim except 3 matches that week.. It was rather surreal.
讽刺的是我最好的表现出线在我说出：吉掰雷，拎北不屌这支队伍了之后。
整个超级周我都只想证明自己而不是帮助EG
我们在比赛拿了4-0，而且那周之前的团练中只赢了三场其余皆输
好不真实
The point is not that i'm trying to point fingers here, but that it had to end.
I don't blame Tyson,Johnny, Eugene or Dong-jin for anything they did or did not do,
they're 17-18. They're more mature than I was at 17 but still have a long way to go,
and that's where management dropped the ball. They should call people out, educate and
make sure the social environment in a team does not become a cess-pool like it did.
Cause you can be as gifted individually as you want, this is a team-game, and it requires
a team to work together and respect eachother, in some way, shape or form.
我不想抓战犯
我不因为他们的作为去怪四位队友
他们才都17-18岁，比我那年纪当时成熟的多，都还有很长的路要走。
这也是管理阶层不足的地方，他们应该要可以赶人走、教育选手，建立良好的环境，
让团队别再成为赛康。
一个人要多有天份都可以，但是这是团队比赛，需要整个团队都互相尊重、合作。
So what's next? Honestly I don't know. I'm a free agent now (publically) and i'm looking at
the offers. I want to prove the world that I can still do it. I've found ways to train better,
work on team atmosphere if the team wants to, and am just in a way better spot physically and
mentally lately. At the other side, i'm very fortunate in the fact that I have a career ready
for me after playing. And at one point i'll have to make the jump. What is one year more of
playing gonna offer me? I don't know.
接下来呢?说实话我还真不知道。
我现在是(公开的)自由选手，正在等待邀请。
我想要向世界证明我还可以!
我有更有效的训练方法，如果队伍需要我也能帮助团队气氛，无论身理或心理都更加强壮。
另一方面，我其实很幸运的已经找到退出选手后的职业规划
在某天我也必须离开选手生涯。然而在多打一年能带给我什么？我也不知道
It'll only be worth it if I get to worlds again. Another year of not making it to worlds
would mean I wasted my time. As for post-player career, i've had a team approach to think
about coaching & there's obviously the caster avenue. Both sound promising, I feel i can add
a lot of extra value to in-game commentary and with my experiences of being in teams
I feel i've learned a lot of things regarding coaching. But playing is still the dream,
I really want to use the experience i've gained over the years and share it as a player
with my team.
我做了这个选择一定要进了世界赛才显得有价值。如果没有我也只是在浪费时间。
目前有队伍在征询我愿不愿意当教练，同时赛评的工作也是一个选择。
两个工作都感觉不错，我觉得我在赛事播报上有额外的加分，
同时我待过的队伍让我学到很多教练的技巧。
但是 我的梦，在打电竞。
我希望可以跟队伍分享我这些年来所得到的经验。
I have a firstworld problem regarding which job I want in e-sports, I think i'm very
fortunate in that regard but it's still rather tricky. I'll spend the next few days talking
to people about potential offers and meanwhile re-build my mechanics. I might start streaming
somewhere next week again. I've had an offer as a player already but it has to be financially
viable. I'm closing in on 25 next year and at that point I need to think longterm.
I try to have the mentality of seperating people from their E-sports persona's.
I may have had my many differences & regrets with "Guitar", but I still wish Brian Cordry the best. Likewise me & Snoopeh used to argue a lot (for the benefit of the team) but Stephen Ellis is a lifelong friend. I hope other players adopt that mentality as well one day.
I wish my ex-teammates: Pete, Stephen, Tyson, Eugene, Johnny & Dong-jin all the best and
hope they find something that makes them happy.
I'd like to thank Evil Geniuses & their sponsors for their continued support.
Thank you for reading.
在选择工作上面我有着甜蜜的负担，我真的很幸运但还是难以抉择。
接下来几天我会征询各界潜在的合约，同时从新调整个人技术。
也许下周会开实况。
我当下已经收照一份选手邀约，但他必须是经济上许可的。
明年我就接近二十五岁，必须开始考虑长期发展了。
我试着把每个人与他们在游戏中展现的样貌分开。
我跟Cordry有许多歧见及懊悔，但我还是祝福他
我也希望我的前队友们都好!可以找到让他们快乐的事情
感谢EG及赞助上的长期支持
感谢大家阅读