来源:林书豪FB
翻译:mattgene
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We love to tell kids to dream big but we don’t often talk about the fears
they might face. Truth is, fear is a BEAST. It snuck up on me. Through all my
career failures, setbacks and injuries. Through the pain of being traded, cut
and having no offers. Through the depths of global embarassment, unmet
expectations and crushed dreams. Through it all, I found myself a year ago
battered - carrying so much emotional baggage.
我们爱跟小孩子说勇于追梦，却很少谈到如何面对恐惧。说真的，恐惧就像头巨兽。
它无声中袭击了我，在我生涯中无数的失败、低潮、伤病中，在被裁掉、没有合约的
痛苦中，在失望和梦碎的深渊中。经过这些，一年前的我差不多被击垮－－背负了
太多情绪的重担。
I signed in the CBA, it took a whole season, but God really came through for
me. He taught me how to play to win again vs playing to not lose. To know the
shots going in vs hoping its going in. To dream big again vs thinking
everythings a setup for disappointment. To be a killer on the court with the
talent He gave me 100% for His glory.
我进了CBA，一整季，上帝真的陪伴我度过。祂教导我如何胜利而非怕输，如何相信自己
能投进而非胆怯，如何再次勇于梦想而非怪罪环境的宿命。祂教导我如何100%为了祂的
荣耀，使用他给我的天赋在球场上成为猛将。
This isn't about chasing the shadow of Linsanity. Or proving anyone right or
wrong. Or about money, fame, reputation or power. It's about God's glory and
kingdom. It's about goin right at all my past traumas and fears, instead of
being forever crippled by them. It's ultimately about when I see God
face-to-face that I could say through HIS strength, I lived with big big
faith.
这不是要追逐Linsanity的阴影，或去证明谁对谁错，或为了赚得多少钱、名声、权力。
这是关于上帝的荣耀和国度。这是因为我要正面对决我一切曾经的伤病和恐惧，而不是
一直被它们限制。这更是关于当有天我和上帝面对面的时候，我能大声说因祂的能力我
曾经活出无比的信心。
I couldn't sleep right for 3 weeks with this decision weighing over me. I was
brought to tears trying to verbalize the struggle to my family. I analyzed
facts, but the reality is that faith ultimately comes down to taking a step
towards what you can't see yet.
我失眠三个礼拜，因为这个决定压在我心上。试着对我家人诉说我的挣扎时，我忍不住
泪水。我曾试着分析各种因素，但事实上最终是那份信心，让我能对看不见的未来踏出
一步。
Despite being beyond grateful with sooo much that the CBA, China, and all my
Asia fans gave me this past season, today I decided to not return to the
Beijing Ducks next season. Instead I will be waiting for free agency and
preparing myself for the NBA — and continuing my greatest dream. And maybe
the result is a footnote, and this decision today was the true test.
虽然我超级感恩过去一年中CBA、中国、还有亚洲的粉丝所给我的一切，但我今天决定
下个球季不会回到北京首钢。我会准备回NBA，等候成为自由球员－－继续追寻我最大
的梦想。或许结果是个注脚 (不太确定意思)，今天这个决定将是个真实的考验。
New chapter, new mindset, new me.
Work smarter, aim higher, reach further.
And smile along the way!
2 Timothy 1:7
#FaithOverFear
提摩太后书 1:7 “因为神赐给我们，不是胆怯的心，乃是刚强、仁爱、谨守的心。”