最近看了Prison Break的第一季
开始看了第一集后，就被男主角Wentworth Miller煞到了
容我发花痴一下，他真的好帅
且他是同性恋这件事让我很高兴
因为没跟我一样的女人可以占有他
输给男人远比输给女人还要让我舒服
我到刚才才找到他的脸书
很少有那么帅的明星会写网志
更少有明星的网志会写进我的心坎里
https://goo.gl/F8cSxp
这篇网志是2016年3月写的
主要是在解释2010年那时，被拍到穿红T恤发福照的原因
我挑重点做简单的翻译，想知道详情的请点超联结看原文
Ashamed and in pain, I considered myself damaged goods.
And the voices in my head urged me down the path to self-destruction.
Not for the first time.
他有过重度忧郁症的病史，曾经自杀过，不只一次
I've struggled with depression since childhood.
It's a battle that's cost me time, opportunities, relationships,
and a thousand sleepless nights.
从小开始，他就一直再这样的情绪里挣扎
无数难以成眠的夜，他失去的不仅只是时间，还有工作机会跟人际关系
In 2010, at the lowest point in my adult life,
I was looking everywhere for relief/comfort/distraction.
And I turned to food.
It could have been anything. Drugs. Alcohol. Sex.
But eating became the one thing I could look forward to.
Count on to get me through.
There were stretches when the highlight of my week was a favorite meal
and a new episode of TOP CHEF.
Sometimes that was enough. Had to be.
2010年，是他成年后生命的最低潮，他陷入重度忧郁
他没有选择使用毒品、酒精或是性来让自己放松心情
因为他发现他比较爱吃
除了暴饮暴食外，他还会很期待新一集的美食节目
他必须要这样，才能让生命继续
后来他就变胖了
后来他跟朋友在洛山矶踏青时，就被拍那那张穿红T恤的发福照
照片辗转传到他妈妈眼前
因为家人的关心，他走过了那个谷底
Long story short, I survived.
So do those pictures.
I'm glad.
Now, when I see that image of me in my red t-shirt,
a rare smile on my face, I am reminded of my struggle.
My endurance and my perseverance in the face of all kinds of demons.
现在当我看到我红色T恤的照片、和我脸上挂著的笑容
我就会想起当时我的挣扎
面对那些恶魔时，我所展现的耐心和毅力
Some within. Some without.
Like a dandelion up through the pavement, I persist.
文末，他说他有时看到网络上有人用奚落的言语笑话他发福照时
他仍会难受到无法呼吸，但是他选择放下
也借此公开他抗忧郁的故事，希望大家关心身边的人
如果你也正陷在痛苦的循环里，一定要向外求救
因为一定有人在乎，他们正在等你诉说