I haven't wrote English for a while. It must be ridiculous to read this, but rig
ht now I have nothing to do. Don't want to talk to anyone. Don't want to do anyt
hing. I'll just writing to express my anxiety since I really don't know what to
do. Lonely, depressing, failure, have been repeat them over and over again. Trie
d to change my mind with different activities. Nothing works. Didn't want to was
te my time anymore, but nothing chages even though I wanted to try. I know I am
just complaining my life. Did I feel better? I guess it really helps me well to
think something by typing. At lease my brain works a little bit now.