My social network is very thin.
I like 7, but 7 won't reply to me at all.
I love Cosmo, but Cosmo said that we are no possibility in his life time.
I treat Heidi very well, but she's not caring about what I need.
I have already abandoned my family, and I don't put any expectations on them.
My colleague today tells me that she doesn't want to be my friend.
Actually I have buried one thing in my mind for a period of time.
That is the interactions between 7 and I.
I remember that when I was working for the USA electronics corporation,
I gave 7 one box of cookies a week.
In each week, I paste the slip of notes which states "Add oil!" "well done!"
"thank you" "sorry" to him on the boxes of the cookies.
At the beginning of the giving gifts, I thought that 7 would refuse to
take it and told me not to do so in private.
I thought that it is the usual reaction when someone keeps giving the gifts
to a starnger or a colleague that he would refuse immediately and
correspodently.
But 7 did not. At first, he received the gifts in private,
and finally he returned them to me in public.
I was shocked and defeated by his action!
He came to my seat in public and brought 3 of the boxes of the cookies to me
in public and said: "No, these are too many!"
In other words, he refused me in public instead of telling me in private.
He doesn't tell me not to do so by giving me a slip or text me a message
or adding me into his line friend and send a message.
He chose to refuse me in public!
I felt that I was almost like the female officer that was broken an egg
on the top of my head.(The news last year.)
I felt my face blushed.
I bury this issue in my mind and did not ask him the reason why he did so.
Maybe there is no reason.
Maybe it is thoroughly my dreaming and existing within my imagination.
Anyway, I dreamed before and still not awakened that I felt so sad.
I never got the answer and I don't get why he would not refuse me
at the first beginning but chose to refuse me in public at that end of the
month.
Exactly to say, I am a little injured.
Due to this episode, I decided to resign from that USA corp.
I still don't get it!
Maybe I might be dreaming!
Ha ha.....pathetic....
Sigh....
Thanks for your browsing.
It is just a "can't be like this" love story.
Have a nice evening!