这次预估自己会难过21天
刚刚过第二天 白天还行 但最难熬的却是夜晚
张开眼睛我能四处走走 打开电脑用影音把思绪塞满
但一旦闭上眼 妳的画面就又会不受控的出现
每个画面 都沉沉的压在我胸口 近乎窒息
我问自己 后不后悔认识妳
到现在也没个肯定得答案
妳是那么美好 惹人疼惜的存在
可对于我来说 似乎总有些我承受不起得代价
早知强求没有好结果 却真的很难抗拒
把自己弄得真狼狈
唉

5/19下午道别 现在是5/21早晨 好像又好了那么一些 但想到最后一日 妳似乎已无心游玩 急于离开 我又感到些许心酸最近一直听 许巍 曾经的你 好贴切自己 听了好多遍shit I am tired of my wishful thinkingI know I have to get stronger instead of stayingupset like a piece of shitI am trying to do something to distract myself, andnotthing really works... The only thing that barelyworks is calling my close friends in Taiwan...But I have been disturbing them a lot, and I believethey began to see me annoyance...I am not a complainer... For most of troubles I havefaced, I can take them, sucked them up. But not thisone...I know you don't have a thing about me, but I am justtoo optmistic to our relationship...I thought as I get better and closer to you as friendI will step out of the friend zone one day...stupid thinking I know can't help cause you areirresistible to me... I deserved it