You are seeing something more realistically and practically now, Moonchild,
and it is making you think that a special dream of yours has little to no
chance of ever coming true. While you are a practical person, you are also a
huge dreamer, and you may rationalize that you first began this pursuit based
on one of your unlikely dreams. But it isn't that you are being more realistic;
more likely it is your present state of mind that is causing you to see this
differently now. Give yourself some time to relax and forget about the whole
thing. When you come back to it, it will still have the dazzle you once saw in it.