You may have expected that a certain process would go very smoothly, with no
kinks or issues at all. You had, after all, imagined it unfolding perfectly,
and you didn't allow yourself to stray toward problematic thoughts. Now that
you are immersed in this process, you may be surprised that there are a few
issues or problems to deal with. Because you imagined that you wouldn't have
to deal with any trouble whatsoever, it may seem that the difficulties you are
facing are huge by comparison, but they really aren't all that big, Moonchild.
Step back and see things in perspective. You really have nothing to worry about.